For the last couple of days I read one of the books that spoke to me most. That book was ‘Ernest Hemingway on Writing’ an anthology of letters, interviews, etc gathered by Larry W. Phillips. I previously read Anne Lamott popular advice for writers little book and I wasn’t very impressed. Don’t get me wrong, Anne Lamott offers some valuable tips to all of us, rookie writers, but her style wasn’t for me. Moreover, I tried to read one of her novels and while the main guidelines were respected, the book did not appeal to me.
Recently I wrote an article on the way in which Instagram affects us and how, as we ‘borrow’ from the style of some celebrities/photographers/etc we become less us and more of a cheap copy of our idols.
Freelancing seems cool and fairy-tale like when you talk with your friends. When you are directly involved however, is an entirely different story. Here are some things I learned while working as a freelance writer.
You feel like falling down*, you don’t know what to do and you go with the wind. You know you have to make a change but you don’t know how. Time passes but you don’t know how to tackle things and situations, you do what you think is best for you. You feel like your life is defined by a single thing and you feel like a failure. You are disappointed of yourself. When you are face to face with a challenge or problem you deal with it as a loser and not as a winner. When you have a success you believe you weren’t worth it and that it was luck or faith. When it comes to a failure, you believed you deserve it. You want to believe that change is brought by a new pen, perfume or something superficial like this. When you see this doesn’t happen, you are disappointed. You hope for the better, but you’re doing nothing.